X-Rays and E-mails

May 31, 2008 at 5:32 pm (blogging, myself & I, rambling, real life, worries/concerns)

I meant to update sooner then today, but I got caught up in some family matters and I actually was working for a few days. I had a 4 day job shakeboard dancing for a pizza place (shakeboard dancing is holding a promotional sign and dancing around), only by the end of the 2nd shift my back and legs were killing me. You’re supposed to dance the entire time…4 hours of dancing and holding a huge sign are not easy. I thought it would be…and the idea of making 14 bucks an hour was certainly appealing but I’m paying for it now. My friend had to take over for me…which sucks. I’m sort of bummed out that I couldn’t even do a four day job.

Anyways, now for the hospital visit update. I went on Tuesday with my mom and Matt…my boyfriend, who wanted to go. I expressed my concern for my ankles and hips, and the doctor sent me for x-rays. Apparently, I’ve been having such problems with my hips because there are several bone growths that act like stoppers and prevent my hips from being as flexible as most people’s hips are. Unfortunately, they can’t do anything about that because if they shave down the bone growths it will make both my hips weak and cause them to break.

My ankles have the same issue as well. They keep locking up because the inside bone of my legs (I forget the medical term; I’m sorry guys…I probably couldn’t spell it anyway) is shorter then the outside bone of my leg and the tumours around my ankles also act as stoppers. I guess that while although these things cause pain, they also support my joints because my ligaments are loose and stretchy.

However, I will be having a surgery at some point this summer. The bone tumour on my ankle that is growing more than any of the other bumps on my body is a cause for concern; and it might help the locking issue if it’s removed. It is safe for the doctors to remove that one. I’m also getting a small tumour removed from my left middle finger; so it’s just a minor surgery that’s only supposed to last about an hour and a half (if all goes well).

So that’s the doctors appointment in T.O. Monday I might have to go to the emergency room if this pain doesn’t let up and get my back x-rayed to see if I really did do something to the discs…since I never did that after the back injury I received last fall.


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Lost Beauty

May 13, 2008 at 3:35 pm (bad things, blogging, myself & I, rambling, real life, story telling, the past, worries/concerns)

A single rose, wilting with death,
Once was beautiful,
With bright red petals, standing tall for all to see.
Now it wilts, the life gone, the beauty gone.
No one stops to admire the rose now,
No one wants to give it to their loved one now.
It’s an ugly dead thing, to be thrown out.
It has no significant value anymore.
One looking at it now would not have known,
That once, this rose caught the attention of many.
This symbol of love, the chosen flower of Valentine’s Day,
Now rotting away slowly in it’s vase.

I wrote this poem December 8th, 2004 for a school project – that’s like 4 years ago. I know it’s not very good or anything, but I like it. I’ve never really been a poet, any poems that I have written over the past years have either been for school or to help me over come things. I can’t find any of my other poems I’ve written, and I only found this one because I was cleaning my room and found the assignment it was for. For some reason, I kept this grade 10 assignment around and finding it today, I thought it would be interesting to share.

Only a couple more weeks to my [somewhat dreaded] doctor’s appointment. In the mean time I’m still job hunting and now I’m in the process of getting a car (and finishing my drivers ed in cars). The recreation group has unfortunately screwed me over, or rather G.A – the old Program Director – has after leaving suddenly and basically telling me to “stop talking to him” when I sent him an email asking what was going on. See I thought we were friends, so I was worried about one of my friends when they abruptly left their job at a critical time. Whatever though. Unfortunately this means that I now don’t have any letters of recommendation, and I also have to re-do the summer student interview. So a new job I am searching for! It’ll probably end up being a crappy fast food, retail or other such costumer service job…not at all what I wanted to do this summer, but I’ll take the paychecks.

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What I’ve Done (& What I Will Do)

May 7, 2008 at 6:59 pm (Uncategorized)

I have been keeping very busy the past couple of days, helping my boyfriend Matt and his boss Colleen with the tattoo shop that they will soon be opening. They recently obtained the space and we’ve been renovating it, knocking out walls to put in pipes for a sink and building walls to separate the main area from the two tattoo & piercing rooms. Next we’ll be puttying and taping the dry wall, then painting and putting in the flooring.

This weekend was also my mom’s birthday, so on Sunday the sister’s and I all cooked her dinner. Dinner was (like always) a hilarious event of awkward turtles (which is a hand gesture we make when someone does something that would be considered awkward…I would show you but I have dialup and to load a video of me making the gesture would take far to long) and laughter.

I’ve been told by my dad that I’m not to blog about anybody in the family anymore, which seriously puts a damper on some of the things I wanted to blog about today. I don’t mean to do it to be, well mean…I mostly blog about my family members in a venting way, or relating a funny experience or expressing my frustrations. But I can’t do that anymore, so I will try my hardest not to.

Only a couple more weeks until I go to the doctor. I’ve made a mental list of things I want to talk to him about, and I even wrote down the weird thing that happened to me last night. My left foot went ice cold and moving it was very hard. I don’t know why it did this, and I’m fearing that maybe it’s a result of pressure on the nerves…so I’ll have to bring that up too. My left ankle is a bit ridiculous in the sense that its so gigantic and it keeps locking up on me. That’s definitely no fun. I’m sort of looking forward to this visit now, I’ve been keeping my aches and pains to myself for a while now and it would be nice to explain to a doctor what’s going on with my bones. If he says I’m complaining, I will definitely [verbally] punch him in the face! I’m hoping I won’t have to though, and I’m hoping I’ll catch him on a good day.

I still haven’t heard back from the rec group, although my interview went somewhat well. I don’t think I even want to work there now, since the Program Director G.A is no longer the Program Director. I got a kazillion text messages last night from concerned and curious volunteers who wanted to know the reason for his sudden resignation. He won’t even be at the club night tonight, nor is he planning on saying goodbye. This isn’t like G.A, and I wasn’t expecting him to leave so quickly.

I’m thinking I might just wait until I get a license and then apply at Community Living. I won’t be getting my license until the end of June though, so that might be a bit of a stretch. Decisions decisions! I still have one more week to decide though…before I get the should-be expected phone call.


I’ve set myself up with a new email account so people can get a hold of me (if you want to that is); medical.mystery@yahoo.ca. I love getting emails from people just saying hi how’s it going, and it’s always cool hearing from other people who have chronic illnesses, or MHE.

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